You may have known that I have been sick with a head cold/cough thing and I was able to rest the last two days and I am starting to feel better.  Woohoo!  I had yesterday off from work for an appointment with my neurologist.  


It has been about a year since I was in the middle of two scary medical mysteries and tons of tests.  I was officially diagnosed with MS in May.  Of course, I was shaken to my core and am still trying to find my balance.  The good news is that it has answered a lot of questions I had through the years.  It looks like I had it for about 13/14 years and didn't know.  


Another good thing is I saw how God had been leading me in some decisions in terms of diet and exercise that I think, long term, have kept me healthier.  I have had to learn some triggers and be proactive with choices and decisions.  


I have gotten overwhelmed with what the future could look like and had to dig deep into what I know about my Living, Loving God, my family and my friends!  


Each time I go to the MS doctor or limp or can't find the word I want to say I am faced with the reality of my life.  There are times I still am caught off guard with it and surprised that I can get so emotional.  Even yesterday at the doctors, I hate that!


There are things in our lives that we didn't "sign-up" for.  Things we wish we didn't have to walk through. When I get angry or resentful of a situation I am reminded about how we are co-heirs with Christ in both His sufferings and ressurection.  We were told that we would be tested.  We were told the same power that raised Christ from the dead dwells in us.


So, my question is what are we allowing ourselves to stay focused on?  The suffering or the ressurection?  It is common for us to focus on the bad.  It's a very human thing to do, we all do it.  How about Job's wife telling him to curse God and die.  Elijah hiding under the tree and wanting to die.


It may have not been our choosing to be walking through what we are, but we do have the choice in how we handle it.  We can walk in the grace and power that God gives us or we can wallow in despair of our own strength and hopelessness.  


My desire is to walk with grace through the different seasons of my life and see that power not only transform me, but the people who may be watching.

Romans 6:4
"We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life."


May that power that is in you ~ strengthen you for whatever it is that you are walking through!!!


Have a fab day!
All my love ~ 
Jodi  xoxo