These last few months have been very difficult for me. There has been grieving, anger, disappointment ~ probably some self-pity. I miss my old house, my family, friends and my bike. I miss walking by the water with Ziva, sitting and drinking in the peacefulness, until Z decided to tell off the waves or seagulls. Which was always good for a laugh. I feel like my body is slowly betraying me. I don't have my mom to talk to about stuff.
I also have been experiencing God's grace and His quiet voice. His gentle touch as we walk through each emotion. You know, no matter how busy you are God will find those moments that He deals with stuff. He's kind of relentless in that area.
I am grateful for my husband and children that they are always there and by my side. I am thankful for a Living, Loving God who never leaves me in despair or in my pain.
Two scriptures that have been running through my mind are:
Isaiah 52:1 & 2: You know that moment when the alarm goes off and you ignore it, because you are so cozy snuggled under the covers? Instead of pillows and blankets to surround us and keep us warm and safe, we use the circumstances of our lives. We can use the pain and disappointment to stop us from getting up and trying again. We, also, can keep reflecting on that perfect moment and know nothing has "beat that" and just keep reliving it. Either one has us ineffective and defeated.
Then God comes in and pulls back the covers and tells you to "Awake, Awake"! One by one He removes a pillow and says to "clothe yourself in strength", "put on your garments of splendor", "shake off your dust, rise up and sit enthroned", "free yourself from the chains on your neck".
These are all things we need to do!
Here is the same scripture with some definitions. "Awake, awake O Zion, arm yourself with force, security, majesty, praise and boldness. Wrap around yourself a wardrobe of beauty, bravery, honor and majesty; O Jerusalem, the sacred city. The uncircumcised and defiled will not enter you again. Tumble about and shake off your dust (like a lion rustling his mane with a roar); get up, dwell and remained enthroned, O Jerusalem. Break forth from the restraints on your neck. O captured daughter of Zion."
Alright! Alright! I'm up! I get it! So this is me roaring and shaking off the dust! I am wrapping myself in and accepting my beauty, majesty, bravery and honor. Breaking the chains!
This is getting long so I will do the other scripture next week. Stay tuned! ;)
May God be with you this week, as you come out from "under the covers".
All my love ~
Jodi xo
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