Half my house is decorated. Half my laundry is done. Half my cleaning is done. I need groceries. OK, the laundry and the cleaning is an ongoing battle and just as I empty the basket and fold my last item somehow, magically another one appears. :}
On my kitchen cabinet I tapped the verse Daniel 11:32 "But the people who know their God shall be strong and carry out great exploits."
I know that I am able to work and do what I can at home only through His strength and grace. But the great exploits thing has me frustrated. Some days I can barely get through the basics. To me great exploits meant going on mission trips, being able to share my heart with my prison ladies or the pastors wives in the Philippines, bathing the kids that live in the dumps, hugging the orphans in Ukraine, doing dramas and sharing from pulpits. I miss those things. They are part of who I am.
Maybe those opportunities will come again or maybe He will bring new ones.
Perspective is a weird thing. Maybe, for right now, my great exploit is staying healthy, being able to love my family, work and meet most of my responsibilities. I feel like a failure in that I used to be able to handle much more. What defines me? What I do or who I am?
Laying down the desires of your heart and dreams you haven't seen yet is not easy. Laying them down at the feet of the One with scars to remind you of His sacrifice and love for you can make the difference between hope and despair.
I have no idea what He is thinking, and that drives me crazy! I do know however, that He is thinking and has a plan and whatever it is I can trust Him. Life is crazy and always changing. God is faithful and never changes...I'm sticking with Him.
So, I may not finish my house and get all my cookies and fudge made BUT I will be strong and enjoy my family and learn what He is teaching me. I think that is my next great exploit and I will do it with the strength and grace that comes from knowing my Living, Loving God!
May God bless you with strength for your great exploit.
Have a fab day!
All my love ~
Jodi xo
