"He sent back this answer: Do not think that because you are in the king's house you alone of all the Jews will escape. For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to the royal position for such a time as this?" Ester 4:13-14
I read that in my quiet time this morning and I will be honest with you, it annoyed the heck out of me. I know that God had placed Esther in the palace to save the Jews and she had to get on board with His plan and take that step of faith. In my life I have known moments of being part of God's answer and rescuing His people.
Surprisingly, not all of it was working in church, going on mission trips or meeting with my prison ladies, although there have been pretty amazing moments. Some of it was in the back of a Friendly's Restaurant doing side work, when my co-worker falls in my arms, broken and crying. All I did was care enough to ask questions, really listen and be there.
It is easy to feel like you are in a "Royal Position" during official ministry times. When I led a Mother's Group, or preached from the pulpit, or taught Children's Church, or the Prison or working at LifeHouse. People hear those things and say "ooohhhh." But you tell them you work at Friendly's or a bank or Big Horn's BBQ and they say "oh."
It is hard to feel royal about that. How can God use me in this job? All I do is answer phones or stare at a computer...
I have really been struggling with my new job. Hear my heart here, I am grateful to have one, we need the finances and I know I will be the best cashier they have. I know the right answers and the God stuff, but it's not what I want to do.
Have you felt like that? I wonder if Esther felt like that?! She didn't ask to be taken from her home, and given to a man she didn't know. There are times in our lives when we are placed in situations we didn't ask for or would not be our first choice. BUT...can we be like Esther and rise up and do it anyway?
That's why I was so annoyed this morning, I really want to scream NO!! There's dreams You put in my heart, when are they going to come true? I'm tired of filling needs. Feel free to insert your stuff here....
Then God reminds me about Joseph in jail, really?!? I hate that! Why can't God just let me be mad and feel sorry for myself? We all know the answer....I hope you weren't going to say it builds character! (those answers don't help, by the way). God is committed to me and transforming me into His image.
He is always more concerned for our hearts than what we do.
So, I am working on my attitude, praying that I will know His peace while waiting for my dreams.
I know He is faithful and has not forgotten me, even if it feels like it. You know Esther felt it, and Joseph, and Jonah and even Jesus.
I don't know if you are living out your dreams or filling a need or a little of both, but I pray that you will rise up to meet your royal position and be the answer to the people around you. They are God's people and they need rescuing!
May God richly bless you!
Have a fab day!
All my love ~
Jodi xoxo
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